You left a mark and you changed me. And for that I want to thank you. Everyday when we're apart both physically and mentally, it breaks my heart more and more. Whatever it is, nobody and I mean nobody had ever made me feel this way. She will never love you as much as I do. I can't get you out of my head, I just.. Can't. Even though we fight and quarrel countless times over littlest things, I still love you the same. Am I the biggest fool? I love you more than everything. That's the problem. I'll never get over you. I guess its that fear that keeps me hanging on to hope that we'll change and things can work out for us. Letting you go would be the hardest thing to do but the memories are like deep wounds. Sometimes I wish I could just get run over by a car and be hospitalized. Thats what you get when the heart takes over. I hate how I have to tell everyone I'm doing great while I feel a sharp pain in my heart over and over and over again. I swear that lovers can still be friends when its over. But you won't even give me my normality. Or maybe it's my fault for still believing in you. You completely broke my heart but I can't stay away from you. It gets more and more painful every time I see you. I used to be so strong but lately I feel so weak. And the worst part about all of this? I would probably say yes to you if you were to be back again. I'm slowly rebuilding my heart, the one that you shattered and gave back. I'm happy that you're happy, even tho if its not with me. Well, life is never fair. Right? I'm sorry for what I am. Forgive me for loving you. I feel so vulnerable now.